I should back up first, though, because I didn’t have time to do that earlier. That, and I felt like I was on the verge of an anxiety attack or something. I had really worked myself (perhaps unnecessarily?) into a panic. How was I even able to talk to anyone? I suppose it could be that I am remembering it as worse than it really was.\u00a0Maybe. I am not exactly doing\u00a0well<\/i>\u00a0right now. Far from it, really. But I don’t know. See above.<\/p>\n
After talking to Radella on the walk back from dinner, I asked Ameiko if she would stay with me tonight. “I don’t want to be alone right now,” I said. “I need someone with me. I … can’t really explain it.” I still can’t<\/p>\n
“As if you need to even ask. I can tell you’re troubled. Of course I’ll stay with you,” she said with a smile. Probably so that I wouldn’t think I was being a burden to her, she added, “It would be nice to have the company, anyway. The feather beds here are comfortable, but after all these months of being crammed in the wagons? Nights alone in a room are both a luxury and … a bit unfamiliar.”<\/p>\n
I was kind of feeling just the opposite. Or I had, until this morning.<\/p>\n
“Thank you,” I said. “I don’t think<\/em> anything will happen, at least not directly<\/em>, but …” I didn’t have to add that I could be coerced or manipulated, and no one would be the wiser. And of course, everyone here seems to live in fear of him. Even if\u00a0I<\/em> am safe, the people here may not be. I could easily get someone<\/em> killed<\/em>, I thought.\u00a0Lots of someones<\/em>.\u00a0I shuddered at that.<\/p>\n Ameiko thought about this for a moment. “I\u2014I don’t think the Prince would kidnap you or … probably … outright force anything. He does seem to value honor and etiquette\u2014to a fault, if you ask me\u2014but I still don’t trust him or know how far he can be pushed before he drops the facade.”<\/p>\n “I need to ask. Is there anything you can do or provide that can help me? In case I have to talk my way out of trouble, or slip away if I can’t teleport.” I hesitated, not exactly sure how to phrase the rest of it. “The catch is, I don’t know when it would be needed, so I can’t completely rely on spells.” This is why I was borrowing Radella’s circlet. Every little bit helped.<\/p>\n It didn’t matter, though. All she had to offer was advice. But. It was good<\/em> advice. “I would not outright refuse him, especially in front of others. Find a way to string him along, perhaps, until we know we can make our escape or find out what his true motives are.”<\/p>\n “In other words, stall,” I said.<\/p>\n “Yes. Stall. It’s a delicate and dangerous line to walk.”\u00a0She sighed, then said, “I never imagined you would get entangled in the political intrigues of court when we started this journey. But, such are the perils of court.” She spoke as if she knew how these things worked. Exactly when was she an expert on political intrigue? I bounced that around in my head.\u00a0Has Ameiko been holding out on me?<\/em><\/p>\n I’d have plenty of time to ask her later, and I snapped back to the present.\u00a0Stay focused, Kali<\/em>.\u00a0<\/em>“I … I think I need Koya’s help on this, too,” I said. “I am rudderless here.”<\/p>\n Ameiko got Koya’s attention with a small wave and then gestured for her to join us. When she did, I explained what that I intended to do and why I needed her there. “I can manage the spell, but I still need help with interpreting the cards.”<\/p>\n Koya looked lost in thought briefly. “Well, it’s not usual<\/em> to combine the spell with a reading, but I think that’s because most people don’t take the time to learn both. There’s certainly no reason why you can’t<\/em> do it.”<\/p>\n I said, “It will take me some time to prepare the spell, but I’ll start as soon as I get back to my room.”<\/p>\n Ameiko interjected, “As soon as we<\/em> get back.\u00a0We’ll wait with you until you are ready to cast. Though I believe Radella has suggested a ladies’ night in your room, so it might get a little crowded there.” The more the merrier.<\/p>\n The rooms weren’t far. While they settled in, I hastily wrote what I wrote earlier, got down to memorizing the spell, and then announced, “I’m ready.”<\/p>\n Koya came over to sit next to me. She handed my her deck (mine is not yet finished), and waited for me to start. I pulled out the nine Crown cards for the Choosing, and then I just stared at them. Are you sure you want to do this?<\/em> I remember thinking. I must have been like that for a while, because I felt Koya’s hand touch mine, gently. I snapped out of the reverie, spoke the words to the spell, and drew the first card.<\/p>\n I was looking at a dragon.\u00a0It was The Tyrant.<\/p>\n My heart sank and Koya sighed heavily. “That is … not a pleasant card.\u00a0It indicates one who rules but who does harm to those over whom he holds sway.”<\/p>\n It meant my role in this was linked to the Prince. It was confirming my fears. I stared at it for a while. I’d not studied the art on this one yet.\u00a0Is it … eating its own egg?\u00a0<\/em>I shuddered.<\/p>\n I shuffled the Crown cards back in the deck, and laid out the Tapestry, face down. Starting with the Past, I revealed The Eclipse, misaligned.<\/p>\n “The Eclipse. A hidden place revealed, or an unheralded ability. The necropolis? Shelyn’s gift of Hon-La?” I asked.<\/p>\n “Possibly. Both brought us here in some fashion. Though I have learned not to be too<\/em> certain in Harrowings.”<\/p>\n The next card was\u00a0The Snakebite. “A weapon used against us. Any of the oni or ninja could fit here.”<\/p>\n “Less certain is this one, but your interpretation is as good as any,” she replied.<\/p>\n A wave of dread washed over me when I turned over the third card. “The Rabbit Prince,” I said quietly.<\/p>\n “Our host is the younger brother of the Khan, is he not? This hints that he is slippery and clever as an adversary.”\u00a0Well that’s just great<\/em>.<\/p>\n It got worse on the next column, which represented the present. Much worse. I turned over the first card and immediately thought I was going to be sick. I could barely speak, but managed to croak out, “The Marriage. Oh, gods, Koya …”<\/p>\n “Now, child, don’t take the cards too literally; these are merely … images and shadows.\u00a0In this case it means that something will change in a permanent way, but what that change is we cannot be certain.”<\/p>\n But I couldn’t get past the literal image. It was like I was being sent a personal warning. I could hear and feel my heart pounding in my head. I fought to keep the world from fading into the distance.<\/p>\n My hand was shaking as I turned over the next card.<\/p>\n I wouldn’t have thought I could feel any worse<\/i>, but then I was staring at The Beating. I sniffed and wiped away the start of tears, then said out loud what I was thinking. My voice weak and hoarse. “I\u2014I shouldn’t have done this.”<\/p>\n “The seasons change whether we read the cards or not,” she replied. Well, sure, but logic is a cold comfort. “In this<\/em> position, though, I think it represents how you are feeling\u00a0now<\/em>. A dissolution of self.” I admit that this actually made sense, and the thought helped me compose myself. I nodded and moved on.<\/p>\n “The Unicorn, misaligned. A false friend. I think I know who this is.”<\/p>\n “You are probably right.”<\/p>\n
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